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Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006
8:59 pm
Bengal Follies Kicked ASS TONITE!!!


Sunday, January 15th, 2006
12:04 pm
okay seriously......my family needs to grow the fuck up and move on with their lives!!!! yes, my aunt is being a bitch and evicting us....and yes they dont give a fuck about us and all that shit....but SERIOUSLY!!!!! its been what.....2 weeks since we found out we've been evicted??? i mean we've found a place to live, we are getting our lives back in order....so why is it that all you EVER talk about is how much our family can go fuck themselves and die??? and why the hell do you have to take your fucking frustration out on me?!?!? you say you care about me and all this shit...but why do you care about me now and not when i really needed you?? you obviously didnt care about me when i had a boyfriend who kicked the shit out of me both physically and emotionally. you obviously were too blind and/or didnt care when i came home with bruises on my face and arms and back and every place else.....so why do you care now??? why do you only care when i dont need you.......but when i need you the most you are never there?? WHY?!?!?!

*sigh* you say your my mother and you love me....but if you really loved me you would be here for me whenever i needed you.....and not just when its convienent for you

Current Mood: pissed off
Sunday, November 6th, 2005
3:45 pm
I'd like to send out a message to all of my friends.
I'll yell it and scream it from the rooftops.
Be careful what you say, and think, and instant message...
For it's very easily distorted from one mouth to another....
Words are lost in the translation between spoken and typed.

You need to figure out that drama isn't worth wasting your life for.
The sooner you figure this out, and take yourselves out of the habit of reiterating whats said to you, the sooner you'll be so much more happy.

It makes me sad to say I trust very little of my friends due to what I know they've said about me. But that's irrelevant. Just remember most of us are supposed to be maturing into adulthood. I know some women and men, or knew them, that never learned how to place nice and watch what fell out of their mouths. Right now they're still involved with high school student drama. I fear that they wont actually move onto another stage in the process of maturing. In my eyes that's not living your life fully...


Current Mood: contemplative
Sunday, October 9th, 2005
9:25 am


*massive fucking sulk*
Saturday, August 27th, 2005
4:11 am
It's not anger, but it certainly is quite yell-worthy.
Monday, July 25th, 2005
12:30 pm
Im sick of hearing about DnD. All. The.Time.

I was about to go bizerk last night.

Im sorry Im not all that into it..but its just a game.
Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
9:40 am
I guess I'm not totally pissed off but I hate how ryan doesn't seem like he's trying to spend ANY time with me at all. It's like the Ryan that is here wasn't the one that left....


*sigh* I'm off to try and fix things.

Current Mood: awake
Monday, July 11th, 2005
6:56 pm
God-dammit. If you tell me not to call, don't accuse me of blowing you off because I did what you told me to do.
Saturday, June 18th, 2005
12:05 am
Screw this
I wonder why the hell I even try. I should just give up on having friends, since nobody considers me a friend, or a good friend anyway. All I am is invisable. Nobody thinks about me, nobody notices me, nobody cares anymore. I'm not part of any clique, therefore I'm not thought about. You know what, fuck it, fuck trying to have friends, fuck trying to have a life, cause obviously it won't happen, all I'm doing is kidding myself thinking I had good friends. Besides Tim, theres only one person I consider a good friend, that might possibly consider me a good friend. I don't have a best friend, nor do I think I ever actually did. I'm sick of trying to fit in, I'm tired or getting my hopes up. Fuck it. I might as well just not get online, not post in livejournal, cause nobody really cares except for my family, and the main person I have livejournal for, IS FINALLY BACK, and I can talk to them IN PERSON, ANYTIME now. They arn't in Japan, or whatever country they are sent to. I know they will be there if I need somebody to talk to, a shoulder to cry on, anytime I need ANYTHING, I KNOW they will be there for me. They were there for me when they were overseas. He is the one person who know exactly what to say to cheer me up, he has done it, many time, anytime I needed a friend, he was there, and always will be. I'm crying so much right now I can't see to type, so I'm done. All I have to say now is... Please remember me...

Current Mood: pissed off
Friday, June 10th, 2005
2:26 pm



Current Mood: pissed off
Wednesday, June 8th, 2005
10:02 pm
fuck you!!! who the hell do you people think you are?!?!?! get off your stupid fucking power trip!!! all three of you!!! and maybe you should fucking think before you talk........unless you were purposely trying to make me feel unwanted and unneeded and useless. and in that case i say you all can go fuck each other for all i care!!! im sick of the way you guys think you can treat other people. its bullshit. complete and utter bullshit!!! and you know it!!!!! its fucked up and all 3 of you can go to hell.

Current Mood: pissed off
12:30 am
Third rant about my sister.
I wish my sister wouldn't be such a bitch. SHe needs to learn to share things that don't belong to her. I went downstairs to play on my XBox on the family TV, but Rachel has decided that she can't fall asleep unless she's watching a movie on said TV's DVD player. So now she sleeps on the couch, even though both of my parents have told her multiple times that she's not allowed to. Furthermore, when I go downstairs to play my games at night after she's been laying on her ass all fucking day watching TV, she tells me, quite rudely, to go away and not bother her. She claims she's tired, but she didn't work at all today. As far as my parents know, she didn't even get off the couch all day. I worked a full shift, and I just wanted to play some games to unwind, but apparently I have no right to play on my own XBox because she's in a perpetual state of PMS. So I stole her shitty, 13" TV from her room, and I'll probably get punched in the face for it. I should have more rights in this house than she does...she doesn't even sleep here half of the time, she never does any chores (mom does all the cooking and cleaning, I take out the garbage, dad does the dishes). When she's home, she sits on her ass, watches TV, eats, and yells at me for not letting her use my computer.
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
7:29 am
Why Wont you just leave me alone???
You are so stupid! You had your fucking "revenge" ok??? Leave me alone, i want too drop this. But you have to drag out your damn drama... fine keep going. it'll get boring when you are playing by yourself. because i'm tired of putting up with you. you are driving me nuts, and so i'm just gonna walk away... you arent worth it to me. you have your friends and i have mine... LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: tired of your shit
Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
10:23 pm
To two people.
Fuck you both. I can't believe that you would do that to someone you were both so close to once. I thought I would be able to trust you with my life, long after our friendship ended. I guess I was wrong. Why the fuck can't you just be happy for us, instead of trying to sabotage us? What the fuck kind of friend would even consider doing that? I don't give a shit that you don't like her, just fucking respect what we have! And quit being so God-damn hypocritical! You both accused me of things that you yourselves were, or still are, guilty of, but when I point that out, you blow up in my God-damn face!

I thought I would be able to forgive you...after all, I'm a very forgiving person, and I often forgive people over and over, even though they may not deserve it. Sometimes, I would rather forgive and be hurt a hundred times over than bear that hatred within my heart, but I don't think there's anything that can make things right after the shit you pulled. I don't think I'd want to make things right if you're going to keep doing this to me. I called one of you my best friend for nearly three years, but that night, I had never felt so much contempt for a single human being than I did for you.

Eat my ass with a wooden spork.

Sunday, May 8th, 2005
6:12 pm

I'm pissed. At myself, completly...

Fucking self...

Get a new heart, brain, and rewire the fucking system.

And I'm out.
Thursday, May 5th, 2005
6:11 pm
dont call me, unless your name starts with A,B or D-Z
i am so pissed off right now. i wanted to go to that concert so bad. and ya know, i'm not pissed off at my family. it was my responsibility to get my sister to baseball, and ya know...it's what i had to do. damnfuckity. ya know, some people are right....

Current Mood: fucking pissed off
Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
12:18 am
god damn you all.

in reply to dear sir,

do not act like you personally know ME. you know what you have heard. you know nothing more. you know what others have told you or you have heard through the grapevine. to all. if you do not like me.. tell me. to my face. not online. not on the phone. or dont talk shit behind my back.. tell me to me. second thing, sir. i have never said anything bad demeaning or otherwise about you. i have said things about some choices you have made that is all. you as a person are like none other. the fact that you can say one thing to my face and something completely different behind my back confuses me. how can someone i actually looked up to be so shallow?

in other news. in light of recent events. fuxors you all. the people i am not talking to know who you are.. you are the people that i care most about and i will do anything for you. for the rest of you eat cow shit and die for all i care.. i will mourn for you but it will not change my life any.

edit: talk about my mother in that fassion whether it be serious or otherwise. i wont like the outcome.
Friday, April 29th, 2005
8:34 pm
My sister needs to teach her fucking cat not to chew through cables downstairs. Now I have to buy a new XBox controller.

Current Mood: infuriated
Monday, April 25th, 2005
9:32 pm
The music isn't helping at all..
There's this burning in my stomach that won't go away. Son of a bitch, it just...sits there and stays. Unmoving, unfeeling, closly related to the slab of granite that seems to have taken up permanent residence in my throat. I just want it to all go away! And I feel like such a whiney little child, crying out for no good reason typing this...But there's this small part of me rebelling against everything in me that gives a damn what ANYONE is going to care or think.

We'll just call that part of me the rebelling artist inside. My own private, beautiful Kurt Cobain.

SON OF A BITCH, I just want to go to bed and damn waking up in the morning. I don't want another fucking morning that's too early, where I'm tired, and unwilling to even participate in the world. I'm tired of the headaches, the being half awake, the ridiculous school I'm going to with the superficial and asshole people there.

Bottome line. I'M FUCKING TIRED OF CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP AT NIGHT. that...and I want my sleep back.Damn...
Sunday, April 24th, 2005
11:48 pm
will everyone just shut the hell up? i'm getting sick and tired of hearing everyone bitch and moan and piss and complain! holy crap, can't anyone be happy, for even a moment? because that's all our lives really are, but mere moments in the cosmic plan, so live it well, satisfied, and complete. . . otherwise all you've done is waste someone else's time, and your time own to boot! so, even though i just got done "yelling", everyone needs to take a step back and think, "Who am i hurting more by being withdrawn/rude/mean/not understanding/hateful, me or my friends/possibly random people on the street. peace

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